Decide. Commit. Succeed.

Peek a boo

2009-10-16T20:24:00.000-07:00

It's been awhile. I could say I've spend this time working out and just not blogging but that wouldn't be the truth at all. As a matter of fact I feel the most out of shape than I have in a long time. I have excuses, but I will spare you those. I'm not even here to make new promises...I'm just here to say that I will be back and I will get to my goal once and for all and will be forming a healthy lifestyle for myself...again.

Yikes!

2009-08-22T19:39:00.000-07:00

I haven't written in awhile! To be honest, there hasn't been much to write about in way of workouts :-( This week was pretty grueling for me including a blown tire on the freeway and dropping my phone in the toilet. I did take the kids I nanny to swim lessons 3 days last week and had to be in the water with the 2 yr old. I have bruises on my arms to prove that there was quite a bit of a workout involved (him grabbing onto me for dear life!). I've got to take them another 3 days this coming week...

I did get out on my bike today. I only rode for 45 mins. How did I get so wimpy??? :-p It was a nice ride :-)

Lil' cardio....lil' sculpting...

2009-08-13T11:42:00.000-07:00

I woke up sad today...I had my coffee, checked my email and realized the thing I needed was a good workout. I didn't do any beachbody yesterday so I decided to double up today and did both cardio and sculpting. I think I'm going to get on my bike in a bit too. Nothing like sweat to put me in a better mood :-) It's a beautiful day and I don't really have anything planned so I'm going to shoot for 50 miles. It won't be as crazy out there today since it's not the weekend. It's been a little cooler the past few days too. I was almost a little chilly after my hike last night...which made me smile :-)
I just had some of my leftover pasta from last night. Unfortunately, I ate all of the shrimp last night so I might need a little more protein before my ride. Maybe some cottage cheese and blueberries...
I like the feeling of accomplishment before noon!

Later~ Didn't ride but just got back from another 90 minute hike...

For the love of hiking...

2009-08-12T20:02:00.000-07:00

Ahhh...I got out on the trails tonight. It's been awhile! When I get out there I wonder how I don't go every day! It's instant therapy for me :-) (I did 90 minutes)

Gonna keep this short. It's already after 8:00 and I'm just starting dinner. I'm making whole grain angel hair with shrimp, LOTS of garlic, diced tomatoes, sliced red bell pepper and zucchini....YUM!

Later...

100% of easy = ?

2009-08-11T08:13:00.001-07:00

I started my workout off with KenpoX and just felt like I wasn't giving it 100%. Not sure I was even giving it 50%....so I went old school. Yup, p90 level 1/2. I gave it 100% and I hate to say this but it was probably my best workout in weeks. As I was doing it I wondered, 'How did I get in such great shape doing this workout?!?' The answer is simple...I was consistant. I also had the time and energy to do my hikes and cycling. I wrote down everything I ate...I don't remember ever feeling deprived.... Hmmmm....

So, today I get to reap the benefits of working for a dermatologist. I get to go in and get some 'fun stuff' done to my skin :-) Bring on the botox!!!

I'm going to shoot for a hike or a bike ride later. I want this week to slow down!!! (I have most of the week off...) I'll post later if I do an extra workout :-)

It's now called 'dodging cars on the 101'

2009-08-09T13:34:00.001-07:00

I remember now why I prefer riding in the spring, fall and winter. It's not just because the heat kills me...it's because there is a HUGE chance a car could kill me. The route I like to ride takes me through a few areas where cars park and pull out without really being able to see. There's so much action going on on the streets, sidewalks, etc that it's very chaotic and makes for a stressful ride. I suppose it's multiplied during the weekend in the middle of the afternoon too. I was shooting for a 35-50 mile ride but only got 16 in. I'll take it....It's so flippin' hot out there. I did see a bunch of pictures I want to take so I'm going to shower, eat and get out there with my camera :-) Happy Sunday!

Cardio X

2009-08-08T18:22:00.000-07:00

Just a quick post... I've been doing P90X off and on... I bought a poster board today to write it all out so I'm able to X it off each day. I'm visual...I think it will help keep me motivated :-p
I did cardio today but felt like I kind of hurried thru it. I was reading a post by one of the coaches for Beachbody saying to tune everything else out when you are doing your workout. I NEED to do that! I need to turn my phone off, turn my mind off and just do it! I need to give it 100% unlike today...
I didn't get a chance to ride today. I'd really like to get one in tomorrow!!!

No Guilt (at all!)

2009-08-06T20:04:00.000-07:00

I woke up at 330am this morning. It's now almost 17 hrs later and I'm finally winding down. This has been a day from *%$#. I will be very, very happy to call today 'yesterday'!
I was pretty tired when I woke up this morning. I kept trying (unsuccessfully) to go back to sleep. I should have just gotten up to work out...I thought about it :-p
I heard that it's supposed to feel like fall tomorrow. That makes me extremely happy!!! I really want to get a good long ride in and 'fall weather' is perfect for that.
I am so tired. I need to crawl into bed and veg out with HGTV...actually Iron Chef is using Lobster tonight...YUM!
Well, the whole point of my post was to say that today is my day off from P90X...and like I mentioned...NO guilt! :-)

Core Syn

2009-08-05T19:31:00.000-07:00

I'm going to be sooooore tomorrow. :-)

I just haven't been much in a blogging mood lately. One thing I noticed is that I worry too much about what other people think (oh wait, I already knew that about myself!)...I tend to hold back on my blogs b/c of that. YES, I suck at sticking to my plan. I think that is the only (or major) fault in my program though. I might not stick to my plan, but I do something almost every day to achieve my goal. I'm glad that I'm hard on myself. I want to be as fit as I can be. I am one of those people that needs to be taught a lesson over and over to 'learn'... I'm glad I'm not where I want to be. Where I want to be (perfection) there is no 'going up' and I'm kind of enjoying the journey....

Tune in tomorrow....

2009-08-04T21:58:00.000-07:00

Alarm set...P90X ready....

I Heart Food

2009-08-02T19:23:00.000-07:00

I'm weak :-( I guess I don't have it in me to do the cleanse. I made it until 630 and then I talked myself out of continuing and ran to Von's and got a bunch of healthy stuff. So, I guess it's back to P90X. I now have to figure out what to do with 10 lbs of lemons....
If I ever say I'm going to do the cleanse again please just slap me!

In need of the cleanse...

2009-07-31T13:27:00.000-07:00

I'm without my laptop right now :-( Water apparently is bad for computers... I'm very sad b/c I love my laptop. I'm still hoping it might start back up after drying out...
Anyway, just a quick post to say that I really, really feel like I need to do the Master Cleanse again. I'm going to stay strong thru the hard part and focus on the end result. I'm thinking that I'm either going to do P90 level 1/2 during it or perhaps just biking and hiking for he 10 days -2 weeks and then jump back on to p90x for 90 days. I should have stuck to the cleanse when I tried doing it ahwile back. I'm not going to quit this time. I'm prepared mentally!!! So I'm having sushi tonight and starting the cleanse in the morning :-) Wish me luck!

Monday

2009-07-27T18:49:00.000-07:00

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I kenpo-ed my flu in the butt!

2009-07-27T08:08:00.000-07:00

Still not feeling 100% but I noticed that I tend to have a bit more energy in the morning so I got up and did Kenpo. It felt good to sweat from working out rather than from a fever or the heat ;-p

Got to get in the shower and get ready for work. I also made a commitment with myself that I would eat really well this week so I will post my food intake later tonight.

I need to make a better play list for my workouts. Getting a little bored of what I'm playing...I need to kick it up a notch!

Weeble wobble

2009-07-26T10:18:00.000-07:00

Yes, I got sick again...this time with the flu. Luckily, it didn't get the best of me...but it did prevent me from doing a full week of P90X. I was going to attempt to workout yesterday but I went and washed my car and that took everything out of me. Sad. I am going to attempt it again today therefore having 4 workouts this week. I guess that's better than nothing. Perhaps this week I will get a full week in...
I was watching an interesting show on Food Network yesterday about a camp for people with diabetes...it teaches them how to eat raw foods in order to stabalize their blood sugar. It was amazing how most people (if not all?) were able to go off all of their medications and insulin by eating this way...even after just a few days! Goes to show that we shouldn't be putting so much crap into our bodies. I'm not sure that I would be happy doing the raw food way of eating but I think that clean eating makes a lot of sense and is very satisfying. My goal this week is to eat clean and track my food.
I'm off to attempt some errands...I've HATED missing the whole weekend being sick :-( I'm looking forward to a healthier week ahead!

Early morning dates with Tony Horton

2009-07-22T14:14:00.001-07:00

So, I was up at 5am again just to be tortured by Tony and his gang... :-) I'm really, really proud of myself for A). Doing 3 p90X workouts in a row and B). Doing 2 days in a row at 5am!
I got a little more sleep last night which made it a wee bit easier this morning. I wanted to keep hitting snooze more because I was super comfy but I thought how disappointed I would be if I didn't get the workout done...
I'm going to go for 3 days in a row of 5am tomorrow. I'm really looking forward to the weekend. I'm hoping it cools down a bit so I can get a couple of good, long rides in...or some trail time at Torrey Pines...
I've kind of gone off course with eating again. Nothing drastic but it just really helps to keep track of it...so I'm going to get back to that....

**** LATER****
Off to bed...clothes are ready, alarm is set for 4:45, coffee is waiting to be brewed for after shower and yoga is ready to 'press play'....now I just have to sleeeeep!!!

Loooong *** Day!

2009-07-21T18:20:00.000-07:00

I think any day that starts at 5am is gonna be a long one. Last night I got everything ready for my workout this morning. I had CardioX on 'pause' just waiting to 'press play', I had my gym shoes untied and waiting with my socks, shorts, tank top, etc. It was all waiting and ready. I think I fell asleep around midnight but I slept HARD! My alarm went off at 5...I was very confused at 1st. I immediately hit snooze and started to go back to sleep...then I remembered. I think I might have whined "Noooooo!!!" out loud. I started doing the math. The workout is 45 mins long, I need an hour to get ready and 15 mins to get to work. So, I got up at 515 :-) It was pretty funny actually. I was like...what the heck am I doing? I was doing jumping jacks at 520 in the morning...this isn't the Jill we know! (This is sooo the Jill I want to be!!!). I did the whole workout, hit the brew button for my coffee and jumped in the shower. I felt pretty darn proud of myself for doing it :-) Especially now as I sit here having just got home from work about 45 mins ago. I ended up having to stay 2 hrs later so it was a 10 hr work day :-/ There is NO way I would have done my workout tonight...even having an extra hour of sleep this morning.

Tomorrow is Shoulders and Arms. I will have to be up right at 5am to do this workout...I really should do it b/c I know I won't want to after another 10 hr day. I have a feeling I will be in bed and asleep waaaay before midnight tonight. I'll get everything ready to do it and if I sleep well I will get up at 5. If not, I may have tomorrow as my rest day. I will prepare for the best though :-)

The rest of my day was just long and HOT. When I got home I immediately got in the shower and turned it on cold!

My soup turned out really, really yummy! I picked up some salmon on the way home but I'm not super hungry so I may have it tomorrow.

That's it...time for me to relax :-)

Flirting with P90X...again!

2009-07-20T19:20:00.000-07:00

At least I'm consistently working out...but I realize I've been jumping around from program to program. I guess there's no harm in that :-) I did Core Synergistics today and it KICKED MY BUTT! I actually got sick..lol It was so hot and I had a big salad at lunch. Guess it means I was working out hard, too :-) I will admit that I only did 40 out of 60 minutes *sigh*. I feel like I got a great workout in though...and I really still have to build up to doing the program 100%.
I didn't log my food again today, but ate very well. I was considering cutting starches out again but quickly changed my mind after lunch when I was ready to kill someone. A couple of triscuts brought me back to my sweet ol' self :-) I'm making a chicken and veggie soup to have cooking in the crock pot over night tonight....yummmm! I bought a jalapeno to make it spicy!!!
I need to start chopping the veggies...lots of them!
Plan for tomorrow is to be up at 5am and do P90X Cardio (I'm going to have everything ready for me to do the workout right when I roll out of bed)...

Day off!

2009-07-19T21:13:00.001-07:00

I ate reaaaaally bad today and didn't workout. I enjoyed every minute of it :-) Back to being good tomorrow!

50 miles

2009-07-18T14:35:00.001-07:00

I just got home from a 50 mile ride :-) I went up past the Oceanside Pier and rode around the harbor for a bit. I haven't been in that little area before. It's a cute little place. Almost a little New England-ie. I stopped and had a crab sandwich at one of the places along the water. I have to say that the other people's bloody marys were looking pretty darn good ;-p I stuck to water (sigh).
It was a great ride. There were so many people out and about along the beaches. It's definitely a HOT day again...probably 85-ish at the beach. I came home and ate a huge piece of ice cold watermelon...YUM!
I'm not going to do P90 today. I think that 4 hrs of riding should be enough for today ;-p Maybe tomorrow unless I get another long ride in...

Hot Hot Hot

2009-07-17T18:57:00.000-07:00

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I think I could have layed in the sun and burned as many calories as working out today. I left the house with straight hair and makeup and came back with an afro and not a stitch of make-up! And that was just going to work! :-p
Now I'm sitting in my 'cave' (my home stays nice and cool!) and trying to lower my temperature by 30 degrees or more!
I am extremely glad it's Friday! Going to try to get up and out the door early to bike before the heat hits again! No P90 today....tomorrow I'll do cardio if I haven't drowned in my own sweat!

* Later: Slim in 6 Ramp it Up!

Great day...feeling strong!

2009-07-16T18:55:00.000-07:00

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I knew I wouldn't stay off track :-) Despite getting pretty much no sleep last night I powered through today. I stuck to my plan and I feel good! I got a good ride in and did p90 sculpting. I am going to go to bed early so I can get up and do cardio in the morning and ride or hike in the afternoon. Yay for me :-)

Grrrr!

2009-07-15T20:58:00.001-07:00

I haven't had the 'on track' week that I was hoping for. I need to

refocus starting tomorrow. I was considering restarting P90x asap but think I'm going to hold off and continue P90 for now. I need to get used to getting up and doing my workouts at 5am. I'm just too wiped out at the end of the day.

I had a horrible migraine today. I used to get them a lot when I was a little girl and have had them occasionally as an adult but had probably the worst one ever today :-( It took a lot out of me...

I haven't been tracking my food the past couple of days so I'm going to get back to that tomorrow as well.

Monday

2009-07-13T21:26:00.000-07:00

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Is it almost Friday?

2009-07-12T20:58:00.000-07:00

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This weekend went by way too fast :-( Fortunately, I only work a couple of hrs tomorrow...but still!!!
I had a really nice weekend. I didn't workout as much as I wanted to...I opted for one workout a day....but I did 100% on both! Today I cycled for 2hrs and 15 mins. It was super hot out which made it a weee bit harder! I may hold off on my 100 mile ride 'til it cools down a bit! I was drenched at the end of my ride today. I really love my ride up the coast. It's so beautiful :-)
I bought salmon and shrimp cocktail for dinner tonight but ended up just eating the shrimp with nothing else. Don't have a big appetite tonight...probably b/c of the heat. It was actually a perfect dinner. I wanted to get to the beach tonight to boogie board but I have to admit that I'm pretty wiped out :-) (In a good way!)
So, tomorrow I'm going to do P90 cardio. I'm looking forward to a very 'on track' week!

Keep on keepin' on...

2009-07-11T21:17:00.000-07:00

Not in the mood for blogging tonight but just wanted to post that I did P90 Sculpting 3/4 today. Good workout. Going to do Cardio tomorrow and hopefully get out for a ride. The weekend is going by too fast...

Off to bed early...very tired!

TGIF!!!

2009-07-10T20:44:00.000-07:00

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Ahhhh...finally sat down to have dinner. Yum! I had some leftover salmon, a couple of baby potatoes and green beans. I'm such a creature of habit :-)
I did my Slim in 6 workout earlier. I'm kinda thinking I want to switch over to P90 now. Maybe I'll do that and if I need to shake things up I can do a slim in 6 workout if I get bored. My plan is to do P90 for 2-4 weeks and then get back onboard with P90X. I think I need to get myself back into the routine of doing my at home workouts everyday before I tackle the X again. This weekend I really want to get some good outdoor workouts in too. I might try to do a ride up to San Clemente this weekend. Just need to figure out for sure how to get through Camp Pendleton. I'm going to check out how many miles that is really quick.... Ok, I got a little carried away and figured out where I would have to ride to to get my 100 miles in...Laguna Beach :-) lol Maybe I'll do that in a few weeks if I get some good long rides in before then... I need to figure out how to get through the marine base first!

An off day...

2009-07-09T21:19:00.001-07:00

So, I went to work today and felt fine despite the lack of sleep I got last night. About an hour into my day I started to feel really weird. It wasn't an unfamiliar feeling...it's something I've experienced with my anxiety issues in the past...but those times would be brief...like a couple of minutes. Today's experience lasted about 2 hrs. The feeling is hard to explain. It's almost like everything around me felt 'unreal'...almost like I was in a dream. The kids I take care of would talk to me and I had to physically shake my head to make them appear 'real'. It really scared me so I texted their mother just to give her a heads up. I felt nauseous too and was concerned that maybe I had gotten food poisoning. I drank a lot of water and turned Dora on for the kids (a big no-no, but necessary at that time!). I have no idea what it really was but after a couple of hrs it went away.

So today ended up kind of being off kilter. Unfortunately, I didn't lose my appetite but I also didn't have any planned meals today so I grazed pretty much all day. I tried to log it all into my program and probably got it pretty accurate but I'm not going to post it. I also didn't workout which is a big disappointment to me. Even though the 'weird feeling' went away I was exhausted all day. I got home from work and crawled into bed with my laptop and watched Y&R online and fell asleep for about an hour.

I'm hoping to get up in time to workout before work tomorrow but if not I will in the afternoon. I'd like to get 2 workouts in...one being either cycling or a hike. I'm also excited to have a more structured diet tomorrow. I won't be with the kiddos so I won't have access to junkfood :-)

Proud of myself :-)

2009-07-08T20:07:00.000-07:00

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I'm pretty happy that I'm sticking to my plan this time :-) I LOVE keeping a food journal because it makes me think about what I'm eating and also it gives me time to reflect on my wrong choices at the end of the day. Today I've had way too much sugar. It's hard b/c of nannying and if I'm not prepared with my own snacks I tend to be drawn to what the kids are munching on. We did go to the zoo today for about 2.5-3 hrs. I only counted my exercise as 2 hrs...but it was definitely a workout! Pushing 65 lbs up hills and gripping my feet into the ground 'pushing' them down the steeeeep hills...At the end of the adventure I could have told anyone that I had been to a 2 hr spin class and they would have believed me :-)
I'm really looking forward to this weekend. I'm going to spend as much time outside working out as possible...in addition to my Beachbody workouts inside.
Oh, I also went to the grocery store tonight and stocked up a bit. I still need to get some frozen chicken breasts and maybe some more fresh fruit at the farmers market this weekend. I've been buying the carb select tortillas which I don't love as much anymore and I compared regular ones to the low carb ones and there's not enough of a difference to justify spending more money and reducing flavor. I should be eating all whole wheat but I just don't like whole wheat tortillas...breads, english muffins even bagels are fine...but not tortillas.
Time to relax before bed :-)

Not feelin' it but doing it anyway...

2009-07-07T20:03:00.000-07:00

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I'm not really in the mood to write much tonight. I just got back from hiking at Torrey Pines...took a shower and ate and think I'm just going to crawl into bed and watch my soap online. I guess I deserve it after the day I've had. I also did my Slim in 6 workout. I had the alarm set for 5am...checked it twice before I went to bed and I woke up at 615 and it was turned off. Very weird. I never turn my alarm off in bed. I'll hit snooze 100 times..but never turn it off. Hmmmm... So, I had to do my workout when I got home from work. I really wanted to go out and get some wine tonight but I got my butt over to the trails instead. Close call on a big cheat.

Staying on track

2009-07-06T18:43:00.000-07:00

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I'm exhausted from the day. I worked, did Slim in 6, hiked for 1.5hrs and did 4 loads of laundry...yikes! It's only 630 and I'm ready for bed!
I need to get up at 5:00 tomorrow morning to workout before my other job. Luckily, I didn't have to get up that early this morning...but I'll have to for the next 2 or 3 days. Actually, I think I will have Wednesday as my day off. So, tomorrow and Thursday I will get up at 5am. I can do that 2 times a week... I just hope I sleep better than I did last night.
I like keeping track of my food like this. I might still have some light mint chocolate chip ice cream but I'll still be way under my calories for the day. I want to stay around 1200-1400 calories but this program tells me to have more b/c of my workouts. I feel like I'm eating enough though :-)
I've got to figure out something to do to stay awake til at least 8:00...

Nutrition Report for Sunday

2009-07-05T20:10:00.000-07:00

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Sunday

2009-07-05T20:01:00.000-07:00

I went for a bike ride after my last post. I didn't quite make it 30 miles. I'm not sure of my actual mileage, but I rode for 70 minutes. It was crazy the difference that I felt in taking a couple (ok, maybe a few) weeks off from cycling. I felt like I was riding my old mountain bike...with 100 lbs on my back...going up hill the whole way. A surfer guy even passed me on his beach cruiser...lol... I got a good workout in but more than anything was reminded how quickly strength and endurance can leave.
I did pretty well with eating today. I ate quite a bit (it felt like..) but the total calories stayed pretty low. I wrote stuff down on paper through the day and then plugged it into my program. Because of how much I worked out today I'm actually way under in calories.

Restart...Take: 25!

2009-07-05T11:07:00.001-07:00

I am feeling super motivated. I've decided to get all of the 'crap' out of my life at least for the next 90 days. No alcohol, no staying up late, no junk and no laziness. I realize I get all 'gung-ho' and then seems to lose momentum, but I kinda feel like this time is different.

I'm writing down everything I eat and drink and I WILL be logging it on here.

Like I wrote yesterday, I will be doing Slim in 6 for the 1st 2 weeks. I just finished 'Start it Up'. I'm going to do that one tomorrow as well and then move on to 'Ramp it Up' for the rest of the week followed by 'Burn it Up' all of next week.

I plan on posting before bed each night so that I will be able to post my workout(s) and my food intake for the day.

I'm on my way out to do a 30+ mile ride. It's a gorgeous day and I'm feelin' good! :-)

New Program

2009-07-04T02:05:00.000-07:00

Slim in 6 for 2 weeks
P90 for 4 weeks
p90x for 6 weeks
.........

(This may change ;-)

To achieve: (or not)

2009-06-30T22:44:00.000-07:00

transitive verb
1 : to carry out successfully : accomplish
2 : to get or attain as the result of exertion : reach intransitive verb : to attain a desired end or aim : become successful
( http://www.merriam-webster.com/dictionary/achieve )

Antonyms:
abandon, fail, nullify, relinquish, give up, not finish (not good!)

A very inspirational blog I read:
http://zenhabits.net/2008/06/the-ultimate-guide-to-motivation-how-to-achieve-any-goal/

Day 3 of ChaLean

2009-06-26T14:20:00.001-07:00

I had intentions of doing my workout this morning but my bed was too comfy so the snooze button won. It wasn't a tough competition ;-)

I got home from work and had a hard time getting motivated to 'press play'. There's a thousand things I need to get done and 25 things I want to get done but I made this a priority so I did it. I will admit that I didn't do the whole thing. I was drenched and just kind of 'over it' close to the end. It was a lot of cardio today which I haven't done in a couple of weeks. It will get easier over time...

I need to work on my balance a bit today. I haven't been doing any artwork...well, with the exception of my photography. I'm also going to go to the grocery store and buy something yummy and healthy to make for dinner tonight. A nap would be nice too :-) I'm trying to soak up as much free time as I can right now. Isn't that what summer is for???

"Weight training builds more than muscle, it builds character."

2009-06-25T20:57:00.001-07:00

Workout #2 completed for this week. It's harder than I thought it would be...heavier weights with slow movement. I've been shakey all day! My diet still is less than desirable...that really needs to change asap.
I'm not feeling very chatty right now...just wanted to post that I did the workout :-)

I think I can, I think I can...

2009-06-23T16:45:00.000-07:00

I think one good reason to stay on plan is so that the pain will lessen. I keep having '1st Days' therefore have the 1st day pain too often! I am really feeling it today... It's funny b/c I was really glad that these workouts are shorter than the other Beachbody ones but they don't waste a second during the workout time.

I've made the decision to give up all artificial sweeteners and severely limit sugar. I don't want to say I will give up sugar b/c I really enjoy my cup of coffee in the morning. I just made some fresh squeezed lemonade and it is very much on the tart side! I was in a bookstore today and saw some recipes for grilled fish with fruit salsa on it which would be a good alternative to my salmon recipe I so often make. I can still use the rub on it and just top it with the fruit salsa for a bit of sweetness. Maybe I'll find a farmers market tomorrow. I'm absolutely loving having a few days off this week :-)

So, tomorrow is an off day. Maybe I'll get a hike or ride in... I also need to write down my weight and measurements and take pics tomorrow...

“I think I can, I think I can.”~ The Little Engine That Could

Eleven days without a workout and feeling grumpy!

2009-06-22T15:32:00.000-07:00

I was going to get out on my bike today but ended up getting distracted by other stuff I have to get done and I'm really feeling like I need it right now. I LOVE the way I feel when I workout and am really looking forward to re-starting Chalean tomorrow! I altered the schedule so that I could have Wednesdays off since that is a long day for me at work (and experience has proven that I just won't do my workout after a 10+ hr day!). I guess that's where the expression "Live and Learn" comes in.

It took me forever to start feeling 'normal' again after my latest cold. I've questioned why I get sick so often. I realize I work with kids and normally get sick when they do but it just seems like I shouldn't. They are the ones with new immune systems. Mine should be very experienced by now :-)

So, yes...back to day 1 tomorrow for Chalean. I don't feel like I have a lot to say right now b/c I'm pretty disappointed that I have gone 11 days w/o working out. Hopefully this week I will be a chatterbox on here and full of energy!

NOWWW I know why I'm not a size 4!!!

2009-06-11T21:00:00.000-07:00

1+1=2 ...... Eggs, toast, coffee, nibbles of food here...nibbles of food there, bites of spaghetti and meatballs, another cup of coffee, pizza (even though it's low calories), more spaghetti, 1/2 of the french toast that was made for the kids snack (and that's where I stopped counting!) = waaaayyy too many calories!!! I need to get super strict and basic. I need to not guess on calories and know exactly what I'm putting in my body and write down every morsel. I want to keep it in the 1200 calorie range and under 1400 for sure.
I workout consistently...now I have to eat consistently.

Counting Calories

2009-06-11T14:23:00.000-07:00

I decided to start writing down everything I eat and...well, I'm glad I am! I've done this before with success. It's crazy how many extra calories a person can eat when you're not really thinking about it. I hate to admit this but by lunch time today I had already eaten 650 calories. I guess it's not too bad if I had actually eaten lunch but I hadn't. I was making lunch for the kids I take care of and 'grazing'. I wrote it all down before I made my lunch and then realized that I had already eaten the calories in a meal just by a nibble here and there! Needless to say, I skipped lunch. Before I wouldn't have because I wouldn't have been totally aware...or I would have pushed it back in my mind ;-)

I've been sick the past couple of days. I had my really good workout on Monday and then Tuesday I 'hiked' for 2 hrs. I took pictures along the way so it wasn't a strenuous workout...but I still got a little bit of a sweat going!

I woke up the next morning feeling awful. It ended up being a very long day yesterday so I (very guiltily) opted out of my workout. I hate missing a workout on day 2 of a program. That just seems silly to me! I wanted to get up early and do my workout today before work but still didn't feel great. I've got a photo shoot after work today so it looks like today might be another off day. Grrrr!!! I think I'll be back to somewhat normal tomorrow so I should be able to get it done before work in the morning. I'm not going to stress about it b/c then I end up just giving up and I really, really want to follow through with this program!

ChaLean EXTREME!

2009-06-09T13:20:00.000-07:00

I did day 1 of ChaLean Extreme last night and didn't blog afterwards because...oh, I couldn't MOVE! :-) It's going to kick my butt right back to a size 4. I think it's good for me to get away from Tony (the P90 programs) for a bit and be motivated by some very in shape women.

Day 2 is actually a scheduled day off so I'm planning on going for a hike at Torrey Pines today. It will feel good to get out and get some fresh air.

Schedule for rest of week...

Today: Rest (hike)

Wednesday: Burn Circuit 2 (39 mins)

Thursday: Burn Intervals/ Ab burner (almost an hour)

Friday: Burn Ciruit 3 (32 mins) (maybe cycling too)

Saturday: Burn it off / Recharge (48 mins)

Sunday: Rest (most likely cycling)

Now I just need to stick with it and I will get the results I want :-)

Busy, fun day Sunday

2009-06-07T22:00:00.000-07:00

I had such a busy day I almost forgot to blog. :-) I did get up early this morning and ride. My pre-ride was nice. I lingered a little while with my coffee in bed and read some blogs. I didn't want to waste a lot of time so I got into my bike gear and set off for the almighty hill. I'm still amazed each time I do that dang hill! I beat my fastest time again today and did the round trip in about 65 mins or so. I was pretty psyched b/c I passed two people going up the dreaded hill. No, they weren't Lance Armstrong types...but still...I passed them from quite a distance. It was almost as if I made it my mission with each one of them. I don't think I've ever passed anyone on the hill...
It was an absolutely beautiful day and I enjoyed every minute of it. I'm pretty bummed that tomorrow is Monday! :-p
Tomorrow is Day 1 of ChaLean! I'm looking forward to getting my body back once and for all. Just biking isn't doing it. I know the weights will work!!!
Off to bed....

Soaking up the info (and the sun!)

2009-06-06T20:53:00.000-07:00

So, my new plan is to do Cha~lean for 90 days starting on Monday. I listened to the motivational cd this morning and picked up a few reminders. At some point tomorrow I'm going to prepare everything for Monday morning...including BEFORE pictures...yikes again! I think this will be a better program for me to stick with since it's shorter in duration. I will still be able to do my biking and eventually my running again.
I also just watched an interesting documentary on losing weight. It's called "Ten things you need to know about losing weight". It's a British video which actually taught me a few things. I feel like such a 'pro' with all the yrs of working out and 'dieting' so it was interesting learning a few new things.
It's 9pm and I am wiped out. I got a sunburn today going to a street festival in my neighborhood. I only had a spaghetti strapped shirt on so it really got me good. Got a full day tomorrow so I'm going to get to bed so I can get up and do a nice long ride in the morning :-)

Out for repairs

2009-06-06T10:58:00.000-07:00

Back soon...hopefully today!

Early morning ride

2009-06-02T08:27:00.000-07:00

Late last night I got it in my mind that I wanted to ride in the morning before work. I'm not a morning person, so I didn't think the chances were too high that I would actually do it. I would have to get up by 5:15 and be out the door by 5:30 to get an hour long ride. I thought about what would prevent me from actually getting up and doing the ride. I decided that what I needed to do was to get everything ready so that I could just get up and go. I pumped my tires (more on that later), filled my water bottle, got everything out on the counter, got my clothes ready...even got the coffee maker ready in case i needed a little boost. I set my alarm for 5am and went to sleep around 1130.

The alarm went off at 5:00. It was still dark and I was kind of confused. I hit snooze and then realized what I had planned to do. I immediately thought, 'There's NO way I'm getting out of bed!' I hit snooze one more time but then thought how disappointed I would be if I didn't go...especially since everything was ready. I got up and walked to the bathroom. I even had my bike by the door waiting to go. I thought...'Hmmmm...I could just go after work...I have everything ready and I do love riding in the evening.' I thought about crawling back into bed. Instead I turned the lights on, started the coffee pot, threw my clothes on, drank 1/2 of my coffee and was out the door by 5:30! I was so proud that I was actually outside, on my bike at that hour! I decided to go north. It was a pretty morning. Kinda cool and overcast which made it crisp and refreshing along the ocean. I got an hour in (15 miles) and felt great when I got home. Usually I shower the night before work and get up at the last possible moment and show up at work looking tired. This morning I got the great workout in and had time to shower and take some time with my hair :-)

The next time I do an early morning ride I will pump my tires in the morning. They definitely lost air over night and I could really tell the difference. I think it slowed me down. Lesson learned :-)

Mental Preperation

2009-06-01T13:44:00.000-07:00

"If one asks for success and prepares for failure, he will get the situation he has prepared for."

I said it a few times, "I just don't feel ready to do the cleanse." I told myself more times than I said it out loud. I was told, "Just don't do it if you're not ready." I wanted to be ready though. I envisioned how I would feel at the end of 10 days. But this morning I woke up and I stayed in bed with anxiety of doing the salt water flush. I thought if I stayed in bed I wouldn't have to do it. Unfortunately, I have to work so I had to get out of bed. Maybe I should feel successful that I lasted 3 hrs? lol I talked myself right out of sticking to it. I came up with every excuse in my mind why I shouldn't even finish day 1. They were all good excuses too ;-) I think what it really comes down to is that doing the cleanse is 99% mental and I was only giving about 10%.

So, I got home from work and had an egg on a whole wheat english muffin and a cup of coffee and was in pure heaven! You know, because I had been deprived for sooo long!

I was thinking about doing a ride today but have a bunch of stuff I want to get done so most likely won't. I am really feeling yesterday's ride. It hurts sooo good :-)

M(aaahhhh)ssage

2009-05-31T18:46:00.000-07:00

My massage ended an hour ago but I'm still enjoying it :-) The spa was tranquil. I got to shower in a steam bath when I first arrived. (I think every home should have one of those!) From there I went into a room that had a 'wall of water' and comfy chairs. There was mellow music playing, some mint green tea and some little things to nibble on. I was given a choice of scents to be added to the massage oil.

My therapist came in to bring me into the private room and asked me a few questions about any problem areas, etc. I told her that everything hurt after my ride today :-) She said that a guy had just been in that ran the rock n roll marathon...I'm imagining he was probably feeling a little more pain than me!

At one point I just wanted to fall asleep b/c I was so relaxed. It was very, very needed! AND, I have credit leftover for another treatment!

Thanks again A :-)

To obtain desired results, implement torture here.

2009-05-31T14:02:00.000-07:00

That title didn't come to me until about 2 hrs and 15 mins into the 2.5 hr ride. Dang those hills in Del Mar are 'fun'. ugh!! I went a different route today and wasn't able to figure out the miles on gmaps pedometer b/c a lot of the ride is along a freeway so when you go to click on the freeway (which you're not actually riding on) it does this weird thing that I won't even try to describe. It was an awesome ride....partly b/c it was different scenery, partly b/c I kicked butt :-) Part of my path was through these 'horse trails' that I used to ride on when I lived in that area a few yrs ago. I haven't been back (on the trails) since then. It's really pretty and I saw a lot of neat photo ops so I'm either going to go out there after work tomorrow or bring the baby for a walk when I'm nannying this week.
Oh, I did have a little scare near the beginning of the ride. It's been raining this weekend so the rds were a little slick. I was coming down one of the Del Mar hills at a pretty good speed (fast!). The light was green for me to turn left as I was gaining speed but then turned red. I applied my brakes and my back tire started to swerve. I really didn't think I was going to be able to stop and thought my only options were to fall or to go through the red light. I think that learning to drive in Maine, in the snow, probably saved me from a catastrophe! I kinda 'pumped' the brakes and was able to stop.
Last little note before I jump in the shower and go get my massage...I really could have kept riding. I wanted to but I hadn't allowed enough time earlier (which is fine b/c I had a nice morning). I really don't think I'll have any problem doing 100 miles soon :-) Oh, and one more thing...weird dream last night. I dreamed that my front tire on my bike was all shredded. I'll try to find a picture to show what I was envisioning. (couldn't find one...the image in my dream was too weird) It was almost like I had ridden so many miles that they just tore all apart. Wonder what it means??? I may write later to brag about my massage :-)

Is a haircut an excuse to not workout?

2009-05-30T15:48:00.001-07:00

Please excuse the very blurry image. I'm ashamed to call myself a photographer ;-p I took it with my cell phone in the mirror of the salon because my parents got me a gift certificate for the cut and they wanted to see the transformation. If only I could get back to a size 4 in one afternoon!
It was a little embarrassing going in to the salon. It's been 6-7 months since I last had it cut (sounds like a confessional!). The man who worked on it got a few little jabs (light-heartedly) in about it. I'm sure he will be talking about me over cosmopolitans later. It won't be pretty. I was very happy with what he accomplished though. I actually had to stand to have him cut the back...lol
Anyway, he said, "Oh, you'll have to go out tonight and show this off!" I told him that I actually needed to go cycling so it wouldn't look this good again until the next time I get it done. I think it would be a pretty silly excuse not to ride, but it is going through my mind. Probably a better excuse would be the rain (ie: slick roads). I'm really NOT trying to think up excuses. I DO love riding :-)
I am going for sure tomorrow morning so I guess if I didn't go today it would be ok. I have a massage scheduled in the afternoon so I want to really abuse my body with a long ride first. I know what I can do! I'll do the P90X stretching tonight :-) Gonna clean up around here 1st which will be a workout in itself!

Much needed...LAZY afternoon!

2009-05-29T19:27:00.000-07:00

I am feeling a twinge of guilt for not getting out for a hike or a ride today, since I did have the time. Instead, I worked then stopped at Von's and rented a movie and bought pizza (???) I crawled into bed with pizza and my laptop to watch 'New in Town'. I fell asleep before I could see the exciting ending (sarcasm intended). Now I'm sitting here with an awful tummy ache and that nagging twinge of guilt. But as the title says, it was needed. I'm going to be more active this weekend so I'll make up for it.

Still deciding on doing the cleanse starting Monday. The way my tummy feels right now I think it's an absolute GO! on doing it. I need to clean out the last few months and make my insides sparkling clean! :-)

Riding naked and realizing that what I already have is 'nuff!

2009-05-28T20:30:00.000-07:00

It was 6:05 and I wasn't super motivated to get out for a ride but I knew that it was then or never....I reluctantly got dressed, did all the things that my 'Jetson's Robot' should have been doing and got my bike out the door. (omg....my dinner is soooo good !!!) So, I get out past the 2 gates through my yard, get on my bike and immediately looked down to see if I had my shorts on. Yup, I did...but I still felt naked. I got down the road a bit still feeling a little 'off' and then realized that I had forgotten to put my gloves on. I thought..hmmm...I don't really need them. I have extra cushioning on my bars and the gloves don't really do THAT much. Ummm...I probably would have been more comfortable if I had forgotten my shorts instead of my gloves. At first it was more of just a distraction...then it really started to hurt. I realized around mile 12 that we really did have some good gloves :-) There was a period where the glove rack in bike stores was abused in the attempt to find 'more gel'. Let me just say that I am now very happy with what I have :-)
So, other than that I had a fantastic ride. I went almost to Oceanside...got 25 miles in. I t was kind of sprinkling out and was pretty dark. It felt good though. I listened to 3 Doors Down the whole ride (some songs over and over...and over). I also thought of something someone said to me the other day about the hill from hell. "It doesn't get any easier...you can just do it faster after time." I think that's pretty true with cycling...
Going to enjoy the rest of my dinner and do a little R&R!

Peel me off the couch and throw me on my bike!

2009-05-28T17:20:00.000-07:00

Getting up at 4:45 isn't conducive to getting a good workout in 13 hrs later...at least not in my book! I made the common mistake of coming home and getting comfy on my couch. I'm trying to peel myself off and go biking. It's a perfect evening to just stay in, put pjs on, light some candles, listen to some mellow music and maybe paint. I suppose I could do that when I get back from my ride (sigh). I am pretty psyched with everything I accomplished today (aside from work)....so all in all it's been a good day. I would feel extremely accomplished if I got on my bike. Ok, I think I've talked myself into it :-) I wish there were machines (or were they robots?) like on the Jetson's that you just stand there and it dresses you...mine would also put air in my tires, fill my water bottle and make sure my mp3 player was charged....
I've got salmon waiting for me for dinner tonight. I bought it a couple of days ago so have to get it grilled tonight...yum! There was actually a time that I didn't like grilled salmon...now it's a key item in my diet. Speaking of diet....well, let's not...lol
I'm off to ride!

4:45

2009-05-28T06:35:00.000-07:00

I woke up quite early this morning. It's not even 7am and I think I need a nap :-) I got soooo much done (even a self-pedicure!) which makes me feel good and clears my mind to get a workout in later today!

In need of a "Jill" day!

2009-05-27T18:10:00.000-07:00

I am so in need of a day to spring clean, do my nails, get my hair done (have a gc for that from my bday), get a massage (also a gift for my bday) and clean up my yard....all the stuff I don't seem to have time to do. I also have about 3 emails (i know that's not much) and a couple of phone calls to return. Then...I also need to post stuff on ebay, workout, start my journal (maybe buy a new pretty one...), open some important bills and breathe :-)

Maybe I need a "Jill Week" :-) The people I work for are going away in June for a week but I feel like I need one before then. I'm really a person that needs to be self-employed!

Today was a loooooooong day. I didn't sleep well last night (I really need to read some info I have on sleeping better (naturally)...). I think a good night sleep is critical to make life go smoothly (or at least a little more smooth!). That seems to be a common issue for me. I don't even work a full 40 hr work week so I realize this can and should be remedied.

I'm looking forward to figuring out which workout I'm going to do. I'm thinking I should do something less time consuming for a month or so to get back in the swing of things. Also, I was driving through La Jolla today and was thinking how I need to venture past the 'hill from hell' and ride into the village. It will be a very challenging ride but that kind of excites me :-)

I Love Greatday.com :-)

2009-05-26T13:46:00.000-07:00

Seems like the perfect message always comes through when I need it :-)

Tuesday, May 26, 2009 Predicting the future The most accurate way to predict the future is to get busy creating it. Though you cannot guess what's going to happen, you can know for sure what you intend to do. Do you wish to be in the right place at the right time? Then commit to creating real value in every time and place where you find yourself. The most reliable way to get in on a good thing is to put forth the effort that makes that good thing real. A surefire way to have good luck is to create your own luck through the actions you take. It serves no purpose to wish for what you don't have. Use that energy to fulfill, express and expand upon all the great possibilities you do have. The more generously you participate in life, the more it will go your way. Always see the positive possibilities in the way things are, and things will work to the benefit of you and those around you. The future belongs to those who act with commitment, persistence and positive purpose in the present. Use this now moment to make your best predictions for the future come to life. -- Ralph Marston

Have intentions of getting on my bike after work. Oops...just remembered that my bike shorts are soaking in the sink. Maybe I'll get over to Torrey Pines instead. Today would be a great day for the trails :-)

Time to grow up!

2009-05-25T12:45:00.000-07:00

Ok, I'm 40...I think it's time to grow up and start making the absolute changes that I need to (and that I talk about). There's a lot that I obviously don't write about on here that is personal, but basically I need to work on that 'balance' that I wrote about maybe 6 weeks ago. I do keep trying...I guess I should give myself some credit...but there are one or two things that stand in the way of me reaching my goals and my potential. And I'm the only one that can break through that to be the best that I can be.

I think I really need to get back out on the trails and run. That was always my best therapy. I also think I should start writing in a journal again. I keep all of these thoughts and ideas inside of me and they tend to stay there. Another thing that would help is for me to make lists. So much of my anxiety is from not getting things done. Important things like...oh...paying taxes... The problem then grows and becomes overwhelming. Ya, I have a lot of work to do on me. I guess it's a never-ending journey (well, it eventually ends...). I need to enjoy the journey and the growing and not put myself down when I stumble. But I do need to become more focused in order to reach each goal. I guess today is a good day to start :-)

Great ride!

2009-05-22T19:51:00.000-07:00

I was pretty lazy after work this afternoon...which is now making me mad because it was such a beautiful day out...but I did get out for a ride tonight. I got 19 miles in....not too shabby :-) I wanted to keep riding but it was getting dark and wanted to be home before the sun was totally down. I listened to 3 Doors Down the whole ride. I can't imagine ever riding again without music.

So, it's my birthday weekend and I'm going to try to squeeze a lot in. I wish I had a bike rack...I would ride in Coronado tomorrow. I do need to get one b/c I get bored easily with the same 2 routes. Maybe I'll look on CL for one tonight.

I'm planning on starting the cleanse on Monday or Tuesday. I'll start it Monday if I don't make any plans that involve eating or drinking :-)

Time to shower and make dinner!

...

2009-05-18T22:25:00.001-07:00

Be bold. Be confident. Be alive. A gallery of possibilities awaits for you when you make change your friend.

Dirty diapers, beer bottles and chip bags. Why not money, cute shoes or winning lottery tickets?

2009-05-18T20:26:00.000-07:00

I just got back awhile ago from riding the dreaded HILL again. I think I did it in record time...an hour and 15 mins. Not sure though. I kept track of my running times but don't seem to for biking. I do know that I rode hard and I rode fast. Damn, it felt good! It was the perfect time of day too. I got back right after sunset...so it was still a little light out but had cooled down quite a bit. I like getting some use out of my cycling jackets. (I will admit there is a certain shirt...a gray one...that I miss...).

I'm now having my favorite meal...the salmon that I talk about all the time. It's sooooo good :-) I really should find a 'lighter' recipe though...

Let's see how many of you can figure out the title without me explaining it... Time to get comfy cozy! :-)

A woman's prerogative

2009-05-17T12:07:00.000-07:00

I was talked into, and agreed, to waiting until after my bday to start the cleanse so I can do at least the full 10 days. Maybe I should do 40 for my 40th...juuuust kidding! I really wanted to feel great for my bday but I don't want to just 'rinse off' either. I'm going to try to be really strict with myself this week.

* Didn't know this little tidbit ;-) “Prerogative” is frequently both mispronounced and misspelled as “perogative.” It may help to remember that the word is associated with PRivileges of PRecedence.

Why do today what you can put off til tomorrow?

2009-05-16T20:28:00.001-07:00

So, I ended up staying up waaaay too late last night and eating way too much. I drank the tea around 230-ish am. Not the best recipe for starting a cleanse. I woke up around 5am feeling horrible. Got my hot water bottle and crawled back into bed. Oh, I also did 1/2 of the salt water flush and seriously almost threw up. I couldn't do the other 1/2 (I do one full glass at a time). Needless to say, the beginning of the cleanse did not feel like a success and I made the decision to start tomorrow. I mean 'the rinse' ;-) I only ate once today and it made me feel soooo sick. I decided to stay close to home and ended up watching a movie in bed. Now that it's evening I have a little more energy...lol I just ran over to the mall to exchange something and got a coffee from Starbucks. I'm hoping that I won't have too bad of a caffeine withdrawal this week. I really want to do at least 10 days but wouldn't it be sac-religious to NOT eat on my birthday? Or would that be empowering to me? Hmmmm.... I've been reminded that it IS just another day...but I've always done something a little special on my birthday...and this is a big one :-( But maybe sticking to the cleanse through it will be a great present to myself. Maybe I could have my lemonade that day in a margarita glass with crushed ice....while sitting on the beach...listening to good music...that doesn't sound so bad. I could go swimming and get my salt water flush that way...lol That is the one thing I'm worried about with this...the flush. It's so essential but makes me gag. Blaaahhhh! I really am looking forward to about day 4 or 5 after I get through the hard part...so it would be silly to give up the day after. Ugh. I guess I don't have to decide tonight...

Part 2 : The 30's Rinse Off

2009-05-15T17:31:00.000-07:00

I was told that if you don't do the cleanse for 10 days that it's not a cleanse. So, I'm not doing the master cleanse, I'm doing the '30's rinse off'. I'm going to get supplies to do at least 1 week of the 'rinse off'. I am going to eat on my birthday (May 24th, for anyone who might not have seen the billboard or the sky banner...lol). Don't mistake that for excitement toward my impending 40th birthday....let's call it acceptance. Actually, maybe not even acceptance...let's consider it finally ready to fight the symptoms of it...

So, yes, I'm going to basically fast this week with the lemonade diet. It came to me as I was (dying) riding up the hill from hell. I need a fresh start again...a clean start....a rinse off! :-)

* Oh, and tonight I will be eating spaghetti, garlic bread and red wine :-)

Motivation

2009-05-15T15:17:00.000-07:00

I heard that my motivation was waiting for me on the top of the hill from hell, so I'm going to grab it right now :-)

Don't hate me because I'm...

2009-05-13T19:31:00.000-07:00

Lazy?

Unmotivated?

Tired?

Wimpy?

Seriously? What has happened to me? I didn't workout yesterday, I didn't workout today...I was driving home today (ok, after a 10 hr day and I did push two toddlers around the zoo for 3 hrs) and I was looking at all the people biking, running, being healthy...and I just wanted to get home, shower and get comfy with a glass of wine. Where is the motivation I had?Maybe I'm not ready for a 'program'...at least not P90X. I know I've discussed this issue before. My bf (bestfriend ;-) ) bought me a bunch of the Beachbody workouts for my birthday (nice present huh?:-). Maybe I just need a less intense one for now? Maybe one that is shorter in time so I don't feel overwhelmed after a 10 hr day to do a workout. Before, I would have just gone out for a ride or a hike but now I feel like if I workout it needs to be P90X. I'm not going to write it off yet...I'm just disappointed in myself. That's all I'm going to say for now. *sigh*

Cardio X

2009-05-11T16:56:00.001-07:00

Anyone who has done P90X cardio doesn't need any explanation of the above pictures...lol Superman! Banana! Superman! Banana!

Good workout. It's 5pm and there is plenty of time to either get on my bike and do the hill from hell or go to Torrey Pines....but I'm also thinking it would be good to get some things done around here. Why aren't there more hours in the day? Or I should say.."Why don't I stop wasting so much time during the day so I can get important stuff done?!?" I did sneak a little nap in today, which was pretty nice :-) Hmmm....I think I'm going to shower and get some other stuff done. I need to remember 'balance'...although I would LOVE to get obsessive about working out again!

The next 3 days are my longer work days. If I were to do my workout in the morning I would have to get up around 530. I'm just not naturally a morning person...at least not THAT early...but it would be nice to get it out of the way. Maybe I should just really try to do it for the next 3 days. Not promising...lol

Ok...time to shower and get stuff done :-) Feelin' good!

Feeling Strong

2009-05-11T08:27:00.000-07:00

Im enjoying a quiet morning in bed with my coffee before I go to work for a few hours. I'm going to do core today, I think. I wish I had time to do it right now, but I will have time for sure this afternoon! Im feeling anxious..but in a good way. I feel like Fred Flinstone in his car reving his feet up but the car hasnt taken off yet...lol Maybe its the coffee ;-)

I'm going to linger in my comfort for a few more mins and then I'm going to hit 'GO!' and have a productive day! I'll give details of my workout later. Ohhh...you know what I need today is a hike (maybe a little bit of running) at Torrey Pines! I'll do that after I do my P90X!

Happy

2009-05-10T13:23:00.000-07:00

For some reason I woke up happy today. I'm feeling like I want to get a lot done. I guess after being sick for a few days, finally feeling better will do that for ya. I'm charging my battery for my camera and going to take some pictures. Maybe I'll do the grueling yoga later today :-)

Mother's Day & my mum's birthday: May 10th

2009-05-10T00:16:00.001-07:00

I feel like the luckiest girl in the world to have had the mum that I had. Unfortunately, she passed away much too soon (36 yrs old). I think it's the biggest compliment when people tell me that I look like her or have her mannerisms. She was truly a beautiful person inside and out. I can only hope to live up to everything she wanted for me to be. I still have time :-)

Feelin' So Good!

2009-05-07T17:25:00.000-07:00

Just finished cardio x and had a great, high intensity workout :-) I'm only going to do the one workout today and will still try to make up the missed workout from yesterday before the end of the week.

It felt like summer here today...although that isn't very unusual. It was a swift kick in the butt reminder that I really want to look good in a bikini this summer. I know I can do it. If the people on the Biggest Loser can lose up to 140 lbs (I think one lost that much?) in 4 months then I can lose the weight I want to lose in the next couple of months! I know the recipe for success...I just need to follow it. If I can get my car smogged, I can do anything! lol

Nothing like a good night sleep and to be rid of a major anxiety!

2009-05-07T09:02:00.000-07:00

I got to sleep by around 10:30 last night and only woke up twice briefly in the middle of the night. I woke up around 7:30 and just enjoyed the comfort of my bed for an hour. I feel this huge weight lifted off of me that has been holding me down for a year+....My car finally smogged yesterday! I am left without a penny to my name for the moment, but it's done and I am beyond happy about that. The day started with my car NOT starting so it was a very stressful and expensive day...which leads me to my confession...no workout :-(
BUT, I really feel this new sense of motivation...or maybe its not motivation...maybe it's just this freeing feeling of getting this problem resolved. I have been having this daily stress for a year of driving without my car registered and spending every extra cent trying to get my car to pass. I am so relieved. I get to go to DMV today :-S Thankfully, I have the day off.
I'm not promising myself anything right now but I am going to attempt to do two workouts today so I'm on track for the week. I know that would make me feel great!
I'll post more later! :-)

Why am I so tired???

2009-05-05T18:10:00.000-07:00

I'm taking today as my day off this week. I know that's 'dangerous' to do given my track record but I am seriously wiped out. I got home from work about an hour ago after running a couple of errands. The thought of even watching the workout is overwhelming. I went to bed fairly early last night but woke up about 5 times and then slept til the last possible minute today. I felt like I could have slept another 3 hrs, at least. Maybe it's my diet? I've been good with my vitamins and supplements for the past 4-5 days. I do have quite a bit of stress in my life right now...maybe that's it? I bought some benadryl today so that I can just zonk out tonight. Maybe I should do the cleanse again and just totally clean out my system. I just don't know the answer. I wish I had a real magic ball to tell me exactly what to do. It would come in handy for my car and finances too! ;-) Actually, it would come in handy for many things, now that I think of it! lol But, back to the major issue at hand...I'm so tired so much of the time. Should I cut out sugar, alcohol and starch? Would that help, I wonder? Grrr...I know it's my own fault...well, I assume it is. I don't think there's any underlying condition. It's not like I'm tired all the time either, I guess. I mean, Im fine doing a bikeride for hours...and I AM re-energized when I do my P90X workouts (most of the time). Maybe it's my age? No, I can't start using that as an excuse! Not at 39 yrs old...lol (I need to say that as much as possible for the next few weeks...I'm 30-something, I'm 30-something...!).

Anyway, I need to figure something out to have more energy...and I need to do it soon! Like I think I mentioned before, I pretty much have the rest of the week off except for a few hrs of work on Friday. So, I'm not going to feel too bad about taking today as my off day. I'll do Kenpo tomorrow and I will research 'diets' for higher energy. I'll listen to any advice given too! :-)

Coveting

2009-05-05T11:16:00.001-07:00

I'm not referring to the body...although it would be great if that came along with the Garmin sports watch!
My friend used one during our last ride and it maps out your route (on your pc after), gives calories burned, distance, mph, etc...pretty sweet :-)

http://revelsports.com/forerunner205.htm

I'll post again after my workout later tonight!

*edit* actually it was this one she had...not sure if there is much of a difference... https://buy.garmin.com/shop/shop.do?pID=349 I like the picture better for the 1st one..lol

Ahhhh...

2009-05-04T19:12:00.000-07:00

Workout done, shower taken, dinner made and now relaxing on the couch.
Ooops...I was just inhaling my dinner and I was thinking it tasted a little spicier...I forgot to drizzle honey on the salmon...lol Oh well...It still has the sweetness from the brown sugar. Gawd, I love this salmon! I was never a big fan of grilled salmon. I love smoked salmon and salmon sushi...but I could eat this at least once a week. Thankfully it's good for me :-)
So, my workout wasn't as intense as I was hoping. Those darn push ups kill me! (I did Core). I also need to get some lighter weights. Might stop by Big 5 or Target after work tomorrow. I didn't make a schedule for this week's workouts yet. I think tomorrow I will do either cardio or kenpo. I'm not working much the rest of the week so I have NO excuse to miss any! I should be able to get full nights of sleep this week (unless major anxiety strikes from my darn car!).
I'm feeling pretty relaxed. Glad I got my workout in :-)

Not gonna kick myself

2009-05-03T19:39:00.000-07:00

Life got in the way today. This is part of what I need to work on. I need to make my workouts my #1 priority. Nothing else is going to be more important. I had the opportunity to work today and figured I would workout tonight but it's not going to happen. I'm in bed with my laptop watching HGTV and I'm going to go to sleep probably before 8:00. I'm setting my alarm for 7am and I'm going to get up and start week #3 (even though I didnt really complete week #2). Ill get there. Rome wasn't built in a day and Jill's body may not be built in 90 days...but it will happen.

Twenty-four

2009-05-02T18:09:00.000-07:00

Anyone that knows me well knows that 24 is my favorite number. My birthday is May 24th, my mum was 24 when she had me and 24 was a great year for me. I tend to get a little compulsive about it. Like every time its 5:24 I have to point out that it's 'my birthday'. ;-p Anyway, today I rode 24 miles with my new friend so I am taking this opportunity to name this post after my number...lol
We had a bit of a late start for our ride (lots of chatting and getting to know each other). We were both a little tired and the weather was weird. She hasn't ridden much (but is in great shape) so I wasn't able to go at my usual pace, which was fine. We had decided to stop for lunch and picked a place in Carlsbad. We had a super yummy meal...we started with some seared ahi and then split a large mixed green salad with crumbled bleu cheese, dried cranberries and candied walnuts with a balsamic vinagerette. Then we also split salmon with a wasabi cream sauce...really good! While we were eating it got super cold and we were both pretty much sleeveless and shivering so we made the decision to not go all the way to Oceanside. Neither one of use has ridden for a few weeks so 24 miles was a good ride. I am weird and kind of like hills...she wasn't loving them so much. I told her that that route was actually the flatter of the two ways I ride. She's only been riding for 4 months and has only done a flat river path during that time.

She is working toward doing an ironman in a couple of years so I told her she's going to have to start doing hills! We met through a mutual friend on Myface (LOL....i was thinking of myspace and facebook...that was too funny to correct!) MYSPACE and we really hit it off :-) She's coming back next weekend to ride again.

I'm going to shower and I'm really craving sushi so going to get that for dinner. I'm not sure that the P90X is going to happen today :-( Maybe I can double up tomorrow.

Switcheroo

2009-05-01T20:01:00.000-07:00

I was supposed to do yoga today but again didn't sleep well last night and was kind of dragging today. I worked for a couple of hrs this morning, came home and got a few things done and then took a nap. My alarm went off after 2 hrs but it felt like I had slept 20 mins. I felt very groggy and the thought of working out was very un-appealing. I hit snooze and then I thought to myself...'how are you going to reach your goal if you give in so easily?' I whined a bit to myself and got out of bed and did kenpo. I didn't have time to do yoga (I'm nannying tonight). I was very, very glad that I did it :-) So, I'm thinking I will do yoga on Sunday since I don't have anything major planned (except getting a bunch of stuff done that I need to). Tomorrow I'm supposed to go for a 35 mile ride with a friend from Orange County and I'm going to *attempt* to do my workout beforehand. She's coming down pretty early so I might not manage that. It's going to be a whooole lotta working out tomorrow! I haven't ridden in a couple of weeks so it will be nice to get out there.

My diet is still less than desirable. I need to really make a plan for myself this weekend regarding that. I need to make a trip to the grocery store too!

Ok, I guess that's it for tonight. I'm enjoying a nice, peaceful evening...the kids I'm taking care of are in bed so I might take advantage of this time and read some of the P90X boards. I should start writing on there too...

There is nothing better than a shower after a looong day and a good workout!

2009-04-30T18:52:00.000-07:00

Well, I think the only thing better will be a good night sleep tonight. I thought my arms were shakey the other day...ummm...I'm typing with one hand holding the other..lol (j/k)

I will admit that I didn't do those push ups or my abs today. I will do both tomorrow. I'm exhausted!!! I wish I had the whole day off tomorrow. I'm not working a lot of hours tomorrow but it's just all broken up so it seems like I'll be working from morning till night.

I really want to get my arms toned. I'm sure it will happen with P90X! This would be nice............................................................ >

I think I'm going to crawl into bed and watch tv!!!
Wish me luck with yoga tomorrow! ;-p

**LATER**
Did abs :-D

Sleep (deprived)

2009-04-30T09:52:00.000-07:00

I really need to be making sleep a major priority! I got 8 hrs the night before last but probably only about 5 hrs last night. Im sooo, so tired! I will get my workout done tonight though and then try to get to sleep by at least 10:00.
Yesterday was my scheduled day off from my workout but I did push a baby jogger with 2 kids around the zoo for a few hrs. I could really feel it in my quads.
Today is shoulders and arms AND abs. I may try to get the abs in during the day (along with those 50 push ups I said I was going to start doing). I have to work tomorrow morning and tomorrow night so I'll have time during the day to do yoga (yikes...so hard!!!). On Saturday, in addition to my P90X workout, I'm doing a 35 mile ride. So, ya...I need to be sure to sleep well the next couple of nights!
I'll post after my workout tonight...

How Bad Do I Want This?

2009-04-28T17:31:00.000-07:00

(First of all..I never swear but this t-shirt is very appropriate for me!)
I got home about 45 mins ago and sat down to check my email, my myspace, my facebook, my this and my that. I am sooo, sooo tired! I got about 4 hrs of sleep last night. Not good! I'm not blogging right now to say that I'm not going to do cardio, I'm blogging right now to procrastinate a few more minutes ;-p I DO want this...maybe not more than anything yet...but it's up there in the top 3!
So, Im going to wait 15 more minutes and then Im going to change and put some good music on and do cardio X! I'll report back when I'm done :-)

*** LATER***

Cardio X DONE! :-) Seems so much longer than 45 mins!!! I havent tackled the dreya roll...it kinda scares me...seems like you could really hurt your back doing that move. Gonna shower and watch my shows :-) Biggest Loser and Idol.
Im sooo proud that I got the workout done as tired as I was!

I did it! I did it! ;-p

2009-04-27T15:38:00.000-07:00

Oh. My. Gawd. I think that this routine should be called 'push up hell'! My arms are shaking as I write this. Remember, I admitted before, that I didn't do most of the push ups while doing Core. I am going to be ohhhh so sore tomorrow! :-D Bring on the pain!

My diet hasn't been great today in that I've only eaten once. I was in too much of a rush this morning (note to self: Get prepared!) to eat. I got home around 130 and then ate around 230. I had about 4oz of salmon, grilled with seasoning and just a touch of brown sugar (would like to get sugar out of my diet completely) and a tease of honey ;-p. Much less than I've put on in the past. I also had 1/2 can of french cut green beans and lots of water.

I think I need to start throwing 50 extra push ups in every day. Not during my workout but maybe throughout the day. I've always hated push ups and I want to conquer them. I want to be able to do this:

(To give him credit where it's due, that is Mark Briggs who is a coach for Beachbody)

I'm off to take a shower and mentally prepare for tomorrow!

Tomorrow = Day 1 ; Week 2

2009-04-26T21:43:00.000-07:00

Monday: Core Synergistic

Tuesday: Cardio X

Wednesday: Off

Thursday: Shoulders/Arms and Ab RipperX

Friday: Yoga X

Saturday: Legs/Back and Ab Ripper X

Sunday: Kenpo X

Diet will be written down and hopefully blogged on a daily basis. I will keep my calories around 1200, eating mainly lean proteins (and protein shakes), veggies a little fruit and easy on the whole wheat (no processed starches). I will also be taking my multi-vitamin and other supplements every day which I will prepare every week in advance.

I'm ready to be strong and lean and feel better about myself. I have less than 4 weeks left in my 30's. I want my 40's to be full of happiness, confidence and success. Please cheer me on if you stop by...I could really use the support :-) I'm going to be in my happy place!

P90X it is...

2009-04-24T21:31:00.000-07:00

I'm re-commiting and I'm going to do it. I've done the deciding part...I guess that's the easiest. I think if I can really commit to it and succeed that so many other areas of my life will fall into place. I will feel so damn accomplished if I can just complete this program!

Im off to bed to get a full night of sleep...something I need to start doing every night again!

Ill try to post my plan of attack tomorrow. I have to do this!

Use your brain.

2009-04-21T14:48:00.000-07:00

I think Ive gone through too much of my life in response to my emotions. I think its held me back in so many areas. I need to start using my brain. I dont just WANT to get healthier...I NEED to get healthier. Its not an option. It's ironic, I can get so fixated on certain things in my life and put 100% of my energy into it...why am I having such a difficult time with this? I want it and need it...therefore I should do it...and do it 100%. Maybe I do need to make it my absolute main focus...to the point of, "No, I cant work later tonight..I have to do my workout." Or, "Too bad my bed is super comfy this morning...get your butt out of it and workout!" Maybe I need to be my own Jillian Michaels. Gawd, I would love to be on the Biggest Loser...well, not the TV show, but living in the house and having the whip cracked 24 hrs a day. Some of the people lost what I want to lose just in the 1st couple/few weeks. If they can do it, I can do it. Ive thought about if I want it bad enough...and I do.

I have part of tomorrow off. I'm going to decide 100% on a workout program...whether its sticking with P90X or doing one of the other ones, Im going to write out a commitement to myself, along with a diet plan and I am going to frigin do this, damn it! My size 4s are only going to be in style for so much longer...

Rut.

2009-04-20T19:15:00.000-07:00

"A rut is a rut. I see the analogy from my life on the farm. When it was muddy and the road was in a state of flux, we would all drive in the same spot and we'd make ruts. Then, when the hot sun came, the ruts were there and driving out of them is almost as difficult as driving in them. The only way to get rid of ruts like this is for the tremendously huge road scrapers to come in and totally redo the road. (In fact, while the process occurs, the road is virtually undriveable.)" Quote and photo from: The Cool Cat Teacher Blog

I'm upset with myself again. I'm not finding my balance. I am exhausted and didn't workout :-( Maybe I need to re~adjust some things in my life before I can commit to this program, because I obviously havent been able to. I only got about 5 hrs of sleep last night which doesn't help one bit. Ugh..I'm not sure what to do. I don't want to give up nor do I really want to change my goal of doing P90X (rather than a different program). Ive had so much stress in my life the past couple of months...maybe its affecting me more than I realize...or more than Ive admitted. That shouldnt be an excuse though...it should be a reason to work even harder. I want the end result...well, not even just the end result...but I want to get back to a healthy way of life which includes so much more than just my workouts.

I did make a good choice tonight though...I was supposed to go back out to a friends house an hour away to have my car worked on more (in addition to the 12-15 hrs it was 'worked on' this weekend). I came home and was just too tired of dealing with it. My place was a mess and I just wanted to chill out. So, I cleaned up, changed my sheets (ahhh...I love, love, love fresh sheets!) and I made my yummy salmon for dinner. Im listening to Sade right now and have the windows open to my little world outside. Its been extremely hot here the past couple of days. I dont think that helps my mood much either. I actually am happier on rainy or cooler days...

Anyway, Im not giving up. I dont know what Im going to do to get back into my groove, but I will. Maybe I do need to do one of the other programs for now. Maybe P90X is too much for me right now with the time factor. Ive got a long day tomorrow so Im not sure if my groove will be rolling back then or not...Stay tuned. I will still blog through this rut.

Kudos to this woman!

2009-04-18T23:48:00.000-07:00

http://news.yahoo.com/s/ap/20090418/ap_on_re_eu/eu_italy_people_levi_montalcini

I like this quote: "Above all, don't fear difficult moments," she said. "The best comes from them."

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NmoE8_U-JTw

Ok...

2009-04-18T22:45:00.000-07:00

Basically I had a really crappy week. Weeks like this are going to happen but I really need to figure out how not to make it affect my goals. Doing that will make me stronger and feel better. I wrote a long post earlier and not sure that anyone (except one) saw it. I vented about my day and then deleted it about 20 minutes later. I try so hard not to be negative. I bring about so many of my own problems with my procrastination and anxiety (which is a result of my procrastination most of the time!!!).
I've got a very full day tomorrow so my plan is to not stress about getting my workout in but to start fresh on Monday. If I don't workout on Monday I want every one of you to send me a message saying you'll never read my blog again ;-p I am going to go back to the format that was created for the lean program and I'm going to do this dang thing 6 days a week. You know...actually I'm going to just focus on one week at a time. If I can just get through ONE week I will be so happy! :-) I really do have so, so much to be grateful for..I need to remember that and just work towards my goals and I will achieve them :-)

Saturday

2009-04-18T18:34:00.000-07:00

No workout today...

Kenpo

2009-04-17T18:47:00.000-07:00

I was able to get Kenpo in earlier today. I had a hectic day so I'm glad I got it over with earlier. I could seriously go to bed right now and it's not even 7:00. I need to get up early tomorrow and do my workout and again attempt to get my car worked on. I really, really would love to get out for a run or a hike...I mean a ride or a hike...lol...maybe subconciously I do want to run. I need to wait a little longer before I start running again. A friend of mine told me about these knee bands that she uses when she runs...might have to look into that.
G'night :-)

Kicking Butt and Taking Names

2009-04-16T17:12:00.000-07:00

I did core synergistics today...gonna be so sore tomorrow, I can tell already! I've actually been missing the feeling of my abs hurting :-p I'm still not feeling 100% but I'm trying to ignore it now. It's mostly just my throat and my energy level. I've been taking my multi-vitamin every day but need to start taking my other supplements again, too.

I've got a long day tomorrow and probably won't be able to workout till 630-ish so I'm going to do Kenpo. I have couple of hours free in the afternoon but probably won't be able to squeeze it in then.

I'm so, so happy to be back on track :-) I am visualizing myself in that bikini this summer!!!

Oh, little side note...I think it's really sad about the woman who is all over the news for the British Who's got Talent (or whatever it's called). The fact that they were AMAZED that this woman who isn't 'beautiful' could have such an extraordinary voice is disgusting. I was watching the clip of her auditioning and they were casting her off as not having any talent based on her looks. She seems like such a sweet and humble person and I just think it's wrong that people are referring to her as the 'really ugly woman with a great voice' :-( Just my opinion...

Sick :-(

2009-04-15T17:40:00.001-07:00

I've been in bed all day...finally just making something to eat (it's almost 6pm). I'm seriously contemplating doing my workout anyway. I don't want to go 3 days in a row w/o working out. Maybe once I eat I'll have some energy...
I need to find it within myself to make this plan work for me. I want it so bad and I'm not acting like it. I am going to do the workout tonight. Maybe I'll do kenpo since that seems to be my favorite one. I think I need to get a notebook and dedicate it to my workout and diet. Actually, I also have some copies of the journal that P90X provides.
I'll write more after my workout....

*Not gonna happen tonight :-( I have zero energy and feel awful! I'm beating myself up big time about this...*

Greatday.com

2009-04-14T20:15:00.000-07:00

I had forgotten about my absolute favorite website until I went on my old computer again today and looked through my favorites. If you need a daily boost, check out greatday.com every day. There is a different message every day except Sundays. Here is today's, which I think is appropriate for me right now! :-)

Active role
There is a very small gap that can separate you from the fulfillment of your most treasured dreams. Fortunately, that gap is entirely of your own making and you have what it takes to get across it.
Life's abundance swirls around you in every moment, and it seems close enough to touch. The possibilities just keep on coming, day after day, filled with the promise of fulfillment.
Yet to live that abundance, and to make the best of those possibilities real, you must take an active role. Life can be anything you make of it, yet you must be the one who makes it happen.
The way to bridge the gap, and to bring your dreams to life, is to act on them. Take positive, productive, effective action every opportunity you get, day after day and year after year.
Take an active role in the wonder of your own life. Shape it and build it and enjoy the process of fine-tuning every aspect of it so that you're living precisely the life that's right for you.
Take full responsibility for all that you experience. And what you experience will be truly meaningful.
-- Ralph Marston

Liar, liar...pants on fire...

2009-04-14T19:16:00.000-07:00

I wanted to lie and write that I did my workout. I thought about it the whole time I was taking my shower...I suck at lying though. Anyone that has read this blog even once would know I wasn't being truthful. I'm so disappointed in myself :-( I think it's just this funk that I've been going through slammed me in the face the past couple of days. And I'm still not feeling well...I've had a sore throat for what seems like weeks. I know, I'm making excuses. Even as much as I hate admitting that I didn't workout the thought of working out overpowered that. I've got to figure something else out...whether it's getting my butt out of bed earlier or maybe just doing it!!! Grrr!!! I think that my problem is when I get home from work I sit down, check my email and myspace AND facebook...and this and that...and then it is like 100% harder to do what I need to do. So, that HAS to change. I AM determined...I really am. I just have to figure out the way to make it work for me. Maybe I'm 'thinking' too much instead of just doing.
I have tomorrow off from work so I am going to get up and do my workout 1st thing. I really want to get a bike ride in too!!! Or a hike. I need some time outside. After my workout I have to get my car worked on somewhere and somehow before I do anything else. (damn car!!!)
Oh, I also wanted to mention that I'm selling my P90 dvds on ebay. Level 3/4 and 5/6 Sculpt and Sweat.

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&ssPageName=STRK:MESELX:IT&item=290309823360

http://cgi.ebay.com/ws/eBayISAPI.dll?ViewItem&ssPageName=STRK:MESELX:IT&item=290309829440

I promise to have a better report tomorrow :-)

Ugh.

2009-04-14T18:17:00.001-07:00

I am so not in the mood to workout :-( I just got home from work and I made the mistake of sitting on the couch. I had to stay an hour longer tonight. I wish I could get up early and get my workouts out of the way. I am going to do it tonight...just don't want to. And I know I'll write later that I'm so glad I did it. And I will be soooo happy at the end of 90 days. I need to remember these things. I think I need a vacation...

I'm listening to the song I posted the other day. That should be motivation enough right there...

Ok...gonna get changed and get it over with so I can shower and watch Biggest Loser and Idol :-) Day off tomorrow!!!! (from work)

Be back soon....

Didn't happen...

2009-04-13T21:59:00.001-07:00

If there was ever a day....

2009-04-13T18:17:00.000-07:00

that I didn't feel like working out...today is the day. I am exhausted physically, mentally, emotionally...hmmmm...there has to be another way I'm exhausted besides the 3 listed..lol

I'm not saying it won't happen tonight but the chances may be pretty slim. I came home, put my pjs on, put my hair up and poured a glass of wine...oh, and turned on HGTV. Yikes...that doesn't sound like I'm trying to motivate myself. I've only taken 2 sips of wine so there is still a chance. I'm really, really going to have my long work day as my day off from P90X. I am working one more Monday as my long day and then it will be Wednesdays. At that point Monday and Fridays are super short days so I should plan my workouts around my schedule.

I am feeling better physically just in this 1st week. When I say physically I mean more as in my appearance. I've looked back at pictures from just a short time ago (within the past 2-3 yrs) and there is such a difference when I'm fit. It's kind of weird. Sometimes I feel like I have reverse anorexia...where I look in the mirror and don't think I look so bad. It's when I see pictures that I'm like..."HUH? That's ME?!?" I wish I didn't care so much, I would post my before (now) pictures. Maybe I'll post some of my before-before pics ;-p I have to get them off of my other computer.

I hate to disappoint myself but I really don't see this workout happening tonight :-( I'll write more later to give the final verdict!

Combo

2009-04-12T12:09:00.001-07:00

Just finished my workout...I did 30 mins of the yoga and felt like I needed more movement today so I switched over to Kenpo. I skipped the warm-up since I had already done yoga so I did 45 mins of kicking and punching again. I think that is my favorite workout :-) It seriously relieves my stress. An hour and 15 min workout is pretty good considering I was on the edge again about working out today.

I forgot to mention that I lost a couple of lbs this week. I weighed myself yesterday...forgot to this morning. I'd really like to do mainly protein shakes for the next week. I've got a bunch of chocolate and vanilla. I also bought some frozen strawberries and a couple of bananas. I'll usually use 1/2 of a packet of the powder with a little fruit.

I'm pretty proud that I've stuck to my workouts this week despite the emotional obstacles. I'm going to do legs tomorrow after work. I'm craving a bike ride!!! Maybe Tuesday after work...

Happy Easter :-)

Post # 2 for today...Choosing success.

2009-04-11T19:56:00.000-07:00

I just did arms and shoulders. It took EVERYTHING in me to do it today. If yesterday was trying...today was equally so. I was very excited that my check engine light did not turn back on and I drove to a smog station to get the check done. It failed...again. I think the technician felt bad for me. He said that they could figure out the problem but that it would start with a $99 diagnostic. I'm beyond done with this problem. Anyway, it really brought me down and I didn't feel motivated to do anything else today. I had every intention of not doing my workout...but I did it. I am trying so hard not to let my emotions get in the way of what I need to do. I need to remember my commitment to this program and not veer off track. I can picture how I want to look and feel in less than 90 days. I'm controlling what I can control...and I can control whether I succeed..or not. I choose success.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=U8LM4C1l70U

Life

2009-04-11T12:19:00.000-07:00

The you-tube video and lyrics to this song were emailed to me last night. I think many of us take life for granted and need a reminder of living life to it's fullest. I slept in until 1115 today. I felt some guilt everytime I looked at the clock but then I would drift back to sleep. I'm still not feeling 100% with my cold so I guess I needed the sleep. I'm going to get out and enjoy the rest of the day though. Life is way too short. I will post my workout later tonight.

(Sorry that it's posting in a weird format...it wouldn't paste the way it was copied)

If Today Was Your Last Day ~ Nickleback

My best friend gave me the best advice He said each days a gift and not a given right Leave no stone unturned Leave your fears behind And try to take the path less traveled by That first step you take is the longest stride If today was your last day If tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday Would you live each moment like your last Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have If today was your last day Going against the grain should be a way of life What's worth the price is always worth the fight Every second counts cause there's no second try So live it like you're never living twice Don't take the free ride in your whole life If today was your last day If tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday Would you live each moment like your last Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have And would you call old friends you never see Reminisce old memories Would you forgive your enemies And would you find that one your dreaming of Swear up and down to god above That you'll finally fall in love If today was your last day If today was your last day Would you make your mark On ending a broken heart You know it's never too late To shoot for the stars Regardless of who you are So do whatever it takes Cause you can't rewind A moment in this life Let nothing stand in your way Cause the hands of time Are never on your side If today was your last day If tomorrow was too late Could you say goodbye to yesterday Would you live each moment like your last Leave old pictures in the past Donate every dime you have And would you call old friends you never see Reminisce old memories Would you forgive your enemies And would you find that one your dreaming of Swear up and down to god above That you'll finally fall in love If today was your last day

All rights go to Nickelback

Decide. Commit. Succeed.

Peek a boo

Yikes!

Lil' cardio....lil' sculpting...

For the love of hiking...

100% of easy = ?

It's now called 'dodging cars on the 101'

Cardio X

No Guilt (at all!)

Core Syn

Tune in tomorrow....

I *Heart* Food

In need of the cleanse...

Monday

I kenpo-ed my flu in the butt!

Weeble wobble

Early morning dates with Tony Horton

Loooong *** Day!

Flirting with P90X...again!

Day off!

50 miles

Hot Hot Hot

Great day...feeling strong!

Grrrr!

Monday

Is it almost Friday?

Keep on keepin' on...

TGIF!!!

An off day...

Proud of myself :-)

Not feelin' it but doing it anyway...

Staying on track

Nutrition Report for Sunday

Sunday

Restart...Take: 25!

New Program

To achieve: (or not)

Day 3 of ChaLean

"Weight training builds more than muscle, it builds character."

I think I can, I think I can...

Eleven days without a workout and feeling grumpy!

NOWWW I know why I'm not a size 4!!!

Counting Calories

ChaLean EXTREME!

Busy, fun day Sunday

Soaking up the info (and the sun!)

Out for repairs

Early morning ride

Mental Preperation

M(aaahhhh)ssage

To obtain desired results, implement torture here.

Is a haircut an excuse to not workout?

Much needed...LAZY afternoon!

Riding naked and realizing that what I already have is 'nuff!

Peel me off the couch and throw me on my bike!

4:45

In need of a "Jill" day!

I Love Greatday.com :-)

Time to grow up!

Great ride!

...

Dirty diapers, beer bottles and chip bags. Why not money, cute shoes or winning lottery tickets?

A woman's prerogative

Why do today what you can put off til tomorrow?

Part 2 : The 30's Rinse Off

Motivation

Don't hate me because I'm...

Cardio X

Feeling Strong

Happy

Mother's Day & my mum's birthday: May 10th

Feelin' So Good!

Nothing like a good night sleep and to be rid of a major anxiety!

Why am I so tired???

Coveting

Ahhhh...

Not gonna kick myself

Twenty-four

Switcheroo

There is nothing better than a shower after a looong day and a good workout!

I Heart Food